The dishes are all over the kitchen and they're dirty. The veges in the fridge aren't cooking themselves and I am soooo hungry...
I just got the baby to sleep and now I can't move for fear she'll wake up. I'm a prisoner on the couch. Some days I just want to quit. But I can't.
I feel so alone and secluded. My baby touching me 24/7 and needing me ALL THE TIME. Nobody wants to babysit because I'm breastfeeding. My baby only sleeps when I'm nearby.
Why didn't anyone tell me about this when I was pregnant.
Then there's my partner. Deep down I just know he is doing his best to learn about this. But when he gets home from work I really need a break.
Lately he's been getting home later and later. There's always a meeting or some other excuse. I envy his free time. He gets to go to the toilet alone, he makes a coffee for morning tea and maybe even reads the newspaper.
Tomorrow he has his office Christmas Party. He'll get to dress up, go out and have more adult conversation PLUS drinks. Meanwhile, I will stay home, clean some more vomit off myself and dream of the day when I can drink again, when I can be myself again.
I love my baby with all my heart, I sit there and breathe her in. All her gooey goodness. Those delectable little sighs she makes in her sleep. That newborn baby smell that's indescribable.
But something has to change. I'm tired of doing everything at home. I'm exhausted and I need my partner to help.
I'm tired of him making a move on me and expecting me to have the energy for more than a kiss. I'm so over him taking that personally. Right now I'll take 2 consecutive hours sleep over making love.. and a shower wouldn't hurt either (alone that is).
It's time to have that conversation with your man because you can't keep doing this.
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